Spiritual Purpose.

[Star]

Now it might be unfair to say I'm looking for a spiritual purpose, at the age of 19. But I've been through things that have aged me much too fast, and I don't know what to do with myself.

I've become a strong healer, but whats the use? I can't get the practice in the things I want to improve.

Phasing is a big one. But I'll only practice that with a partner.

I haven't been able to conciously project or OBE, its been 3-4 years of trying that.

The wierd thing is I kept becoming drawn back, but I don't know why. I can' speak with my guides, or my higher self. So I don't know what this work is all for.

I'd like to find more people to practice with for one thing. Groups always add a chance of something exciting happening.

You know what, I've been practicing Reiki for only 2 years. But I have multitudes of different Reiki systems, I'm a Reiki, "Master" But I don't consider myself a master.

Everytime I learn something or get proficient. I see ways to improve and new things to learn.

Not even just that. I find more things in my body to fix, like blocks, low energy centers. Blah.

Advice would be appreciated.

Edit: In fact, there is probably a reason I posted here, instead of somewhere else, or asking some other specific person.

[sash]

I think that is the essence of spirituality. Often people will stop at a particular level, but development just keeps evolving and the point is to continue progressing in new areas.

I think as long as you have a few things that you are satisfied with at the moment and a few that you are consciously working on developing you will overall be quite happy.
However if we are always just searching it is difficult to be happy in this way, likewise if we settle for just one reality. For example, you decide to practice phasing with someone, and then healing, but at the same time work on developing other aspects - and then moving on to those in the future.
It is probable that it is also a lot more difficult to find this kind of personal forte at a younger age, however as I said this is the essence of spiritual development, in fact seeking stability in change is oftentimes the ideal.

Go with how things unfold and put trust in yourself that you are heading in the right direction. Also, I think spiritual development is not necessarily limited to the development of particular abilities, but this is another topic altogether.

[wstein]

I have a suggestion or two...

Most of the experiences you list are from the same level (scale) as your physical life. Try probing in a different direction, say go visit the creator of this universe, make yourself small and experience what it is like to be at quantum scale, go visit some of your other incarnations. The point is to get out of your local neighborhood (the material universe) and get a new perspective. I will warn you that it may make the mundane life even more gray but it might also spark an interest on a whole new level. I can tell you from experience, if you reach far enough, you will meet yourself.

[James]

Oooh, I remember when I first posted that thread. My development as blown nearly out of control since then.

I suppose I just didn't realize, nor expect the direction I would go, or how difficult it would be for me. I'm glad that I worked at it, and I"m in a much better place now. Even if I still haven't gotten Astral Projection down several years later. Ha!

I do have contacts in the astral and ones that live in their own world and yet not this one, another physical reality. How amazing?

Ooh, but I still want to continue and experience, learn and even inspire others and I have definitely made progress in that field. Even in the healing field.

I started around 2005 and I still don't understand completely why i'm doing this! I have more ideas and things are forming but what I have been dealing with most often involves self healing. Thats the most difficult of all for me.

Nice place. I can't believe I joined in 06 when I still lived in Las Vegas!